> ## Content Index > Fetch the complete content index at: https://dd.malinoix.com/llms.txt > Use this file to discover other available public pages before exploring further. # Becoming a Mom is Completely Terrifying - URL: https://dd.malinoix.com/becoming-a-mom/ - Published: 2015-03-19T06:00:50.000Z - Updated: 2015-03-19T06:00:50.000Z - Author: Maggie - Tags: Devotionals, Health & Body, Anxiety/Depression, Health, Motherhood, pregnancy, Women's Issues, #wordpress, #Import 2026-10-12 13:59 ## ![becoming a mom is completely terrifying maggie winterton on devotional diva motherhood anxiety christian blog](https://dd.malinoix.com/content/images/wordpress/2015/03/becoming-a-mom-545x361.jpg)Becoming a mom is completely terrifying. Almost every night for the past few weeks, I’ve started falling asleep…and then I realize, **I’M GOING TO BE A MOM.** ### I go into a panic, thinking about how hard it will be to take care of my new baby and trying to think of all the things I still need to do. I try to rationalize my knowledge of infant care and how I can get everything done. In my mind, if I can make sense of something and have a reasonable plan, I start to feel better. I’m excited for my little boy to arrive, really, I am. I want to be a mom, but at the same time, *it’s just so scary.* There is no way one can *really* prepare themselves for becoming a parent, right? I am reading all the books on having a newborn, I’m planning on taking some classes, and I already have a lot of experience with babies. But I imagine you don’t know what you’re really in for until you’re there. #### I hate that! I feel so much better when I’m prepared for things. And it’s not just that I will have this little being completely relying on me in about two months. I still feel like I have so much that I want/need to accomplish before he gets here. Because, obviously, things we be different once he arrives! So I want to try to get a lot of stuff out of the way, like home organization. I know that my son will not need our pantry to be reorganized when he comes home from the hospital. *(Well, hopefully he is not a demanding little neat freak right out of the womb!)* If it’s not reorganized by the time he gets here, *oh well,* I just will have to wait until things settle down and I have more time to do it. But I have still set that goal and feel I need to complete it. The pregnancy books say that anxiety is normal, but I kind of feel bad about it. **I guess I just didn’t think I would feel this way right now.** It’s not like I thought I would be so ill during my pregnancy, either. Sometimes I have such silly expectations for myself. **It’s always amazing to me how, at stressful times, God will show me He’s got my back.** A couple weeks ago fellow Christian blogger Kelly Crawford reached out to me to send me her eBook on motherhood entitled ***(get this)*:** [When Motherhood Feels Too Hard.](http://www.generationcedar.com/main/our-products/ebooks/when-motherhood-feels-too-hard?ref=dd.malinoix.com) I think I laughed out loud when I read the email. There was no way Kelly knew I was just starting to struggle with motherhood. She only knew I was going to become a mom. ***Oh, but God knew, alright!*** God is so good. It’s things like a devotional targeted just to what I need, that feeling of God’s love, and knowledge that *He totally knows what’s going on with me* that encourages me to carry on. To put down the baby care book at 1 AM and try to get some sleep; To stop looking at Pinterest to figure out how I’m going to reorganize my entire house. # And to just trust that, really, truly, everything is gonna be okay! ![dd-sig](https://dd.malinoix.com/content/images/wordpress/2015/03/dd-sig1-545x293.png) *Disclaimer: As I mentioned, Kelly graciously sent me her eBook for free.* photo credit: [Ezra toes](http://www.flickr.com/photos/55933740@N06/14817794160?ref=dd.malinoix.com) via [photopin](http://photopin.com/?ref=dd.malinoix.com) [(license)](https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nd/2.0/?ref=dd.malinoix.com)